AMELIA FAIS HARNAS CUEVA
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CENTROFIDEZ
CONFIDENCE in tablet form
Self-assuredness booster, gumption
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“Everyone loses when bright people play small.” - Valerie Young

1 Year Later Update: I still struggle with many of the thoughts listed in the video, and I still struggle with doubting that Rite Mendica is actually successfully doing what I hope it could do. It's tough. But here I am, taking a deep breath and choosing to believe in myself and my work.

...Isn’t it human to want to be the best at whatever you do or whatever you are passionate about? The fear of being found out that maybe we aren’t the best or any good at all… isn’t that just being afraid that someone will find out that we’re just… you know… human? A beautiful, complex, flawed, & hopeful human.

    anonymous confessional

    Now respond to yourself as you would respond to a friend.
This I Confess
Anonymous Responses:

Why do you feel like an imposter?
I don't have the training to be doing everything I do in my job. There are other people more qualified who just didn't get as lucky as me.
What qualities do you embody that render everything you listed not true?
I am an honest, educated and passionate individual who worked hard for what I have and strives to educate myself before taking on any task.
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Why do you feel like an imposter?
I'm not trained to do what I do professionally, in any of the spaces I am in. In my creative life, I don't take my crafts seriously enough (in time, in money, in how I put it out there).
What qualities do you embody that render everything you listed not true?
You're good enough, because you DO do it. You've gained the training through experience and self teaching. And creatively you put in the time that you can, and keep growing.
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​Why do you feel like an imposter?
I feel like an imposter anytime I have to answer the question where do I see myself in 5 years, or think about what career path I’m on- what’s next professionally? I also feel like a big imposter creatively- like I have no idea what to even try to do to make something go to a different place/ next level?
What qualities do you embody that render everything you listed not true?
I have been gainfully employed for my entire adult existence, so there must be something about my ability to show up and do things in an office that isn’t total bullsh*t.
I could say I know what I don’t want- and I could name qualities of a workplace that I want, even if not the type of work.
I guess I have some ideas about what I could try but lack the know how of where those ideas would go or how to go about them.
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Why do you feel like an imposter?
When my voice is not the loudest in the room, I fade. When I need more time or just don't have the answer right away, I step aside - I'm too slow. When I get stuck at the first draft, I stop. I spend more time daydreaming than doing. A real artist would be louder, more productive, active.

I am half an artist - hidden behind all of the other activities that fill up my life. I feel like the "whole" artist would be willing to "go all in" - focus on the one thing, do it loud, fast, and unapologetically.

But I float.

What qualities do you embody that render everything you listed not true?
You are the goddam s*it of all the s*it. You are doing the things and are f*$#ing bad@ss. Take all of the time you need, find your voice, and scream your guts out when you find it. Or don't. Speak silently. Either way, we will hear you and we want to hear you.
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Further Reading
The Audacity of Confidence: Is It Imposter Syndrome or Is It Patriarchy?
Stop Telling Women They Have Imposter Syndrome

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Podcast Episode

UnF*ck Your Brain: Imposter Syndrome
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  • Artwork
    • 2022 - Rite Mendica
    • 2019 - Histology Series
    • 2019 - Deeply Held
    • 2019 - The Merism
    • 2019 - Drink a Measure Round
    • 2018 - Figure Studies
    • 2016 - #nomakeup
    • 2014 - Razzle Dazzle
    • 2014 - Familiarity Series
    • 2012 - Damiani Wine Stains
    • 2010 - The First Wine Stains
    • 2003 - 2018 Sketchbook Excerpts
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